pushing forward!

I have had SO MANY ups and downs since just being pregnant... my husband was deployed for 6 months and 2weeks after he left I found out I was pregnant! WOO HOO.. we weren't really preventing it. I have horrible mood swings when prego! :( and on top of that I was extremely stressed! Now the baby is born and I am still having mood swings! it has been almost 6 weeks and there are days where i just want to sleep and I get very angry at the smallest things :( but then the next day I have an awesome day! I feel rested and like I can take on the world! I like those days the most!! :) I come across a lot of bumps in the road with having a baby and a 2 year old! It is hard to sit down and nurse a baby and try and relax while your 2yr old pokes and pulls at the new born! BUT THAT'S LIFE!! With my first child I realized that there aren't many places to sell a good fitting nursing bra... 1 bump for the road! With my son I was determined to find some nice fitting ones... Lindasonline is awesome! I FINALLY got to order 4 new bras today!! WOO HOO! so i am feeling better about that! 2nd bump - a baby that is either eating, sleeping, or crying! = NOT FUN! My poor baby has HORRIBLE gas and a bad diaper rash that I just can't figure out!! I feel like a bad mommie because I can't get the rash to go away and I can't figure out if it is something I am eating causing the gas! :( BUT that too shall pass with time I am sure!

So many things going on in my life... that in my head seem so HORRIBLE when in reality they are not! but It is good to just vent and get things off my mind before bed!

3rd bump- our car is breaking... we finally get it paid off and now it seems one thing after another is just breaking :( this makes my husband stressed and then I get stressed because well I don't work.. I'm not contributing! (which isn't true - I am at home raising the kids - but I don't see it this way most of the time!)

There really aren't that many things going on this week as I imagined! It has just been a rough day for me! Tomorrow will be lots better I am sure!!!! :)

Good Night to me! :)

let's see how this goes

well... life has been a bit crazy lately! I am now learning to be a parent to a 4 week old and a 2 year old. I am also trying to get use to not working. I know I haven't been working for quit some time now but for the first 6 months it seemed more like a vacation. Now I am truly the "house wife" and I have to clean and cook and do laundry and raise the kids and teach them things. It is over whelming haha



It just seems like things keep happening around me right after each other. If it's not my mom losing her job, or my sis in law being put on bed rest while pregnant, or my uncle passing away, my step dad getting hurt, my great friend having her son really early (check out her blog and be praying for baby pierce http://littlebabypierce.blogspot.com) or just me feeling down (baby blues i think) it just never seems to end. Why can't everyone just be in good health and happy and live life? Why must there be so many trials? I sometimes wish life could be as simple as it was when I was a child. but then i remember that i was just left in the dark as a child... life still had the same struggles and trials.. it was just kept from me... :/ which is better?

Well it is time for me to try and get some sleep before my 4 week old wakes to eat! I am awake way more than i am use to lately!!! oh the joys of being a mother! :)